Sadly, I am writing well past my bed time, yet again. That said, I am handling things decently. Over the last few years, I have struggled mightily when I have gone back to work after longer breaks. Regularly, my expectations are far too high. Needless to say, I worried that returning to school after not [...]
It is late, and I need to sleep, but I needed to report that my med holiday seems to have helped some. I took my amphetamine today for the first time since the morning of December 30. While I did not feel a significant improvement in its effectiveness, I do think that I was more [...]
One of the hardest aspects of a medication holiday is the fact that even when I feel coherent, I find it impossible to focus in any meaningful way. Although I was out for three different one to two hour blocks today, I also had more energy when I was awake. Yet, even with those moments [...]
Stunningly, it is twenty-ten. Although I find myself appreciating most moments of every day, I’m awed that the first decade of the twenty-first century has almost passed. Depending on one’s perspective, this new year marks the start of the second decade, or the end of the first. Either way, things have raced along at a [...]
My parents are here. Generally, that is a good thing, but this evening, my mother won’t stop moving. It is great that someone is doing all of the cleaning, but I wish she could let herself relax. I must admit, however, that I am feeling minimal guilt about the situation. In the past, I think [...]
I ended the medication holiday this morning. I didn’t get out of bed until 9 AM, but part of that was waiting for my daughter to get up. How cool is it that my daughter was the last one to wake up on Christmas morning? I have a super cool kid. We had to wait [...]
When I got out of bed this morning (I hesitate to call the experience “waking up”), I was convinced that day four would be far worse than day three. The extreme effort of feeding three cats left me exhausted for the next hour. I eventually stumbled to the living room and promptly slept for the [...]
I am on day three of my med holiday. I actually posted it as my Facebook status and a number of PWNs commented. One of the best responses was, “why can’t med holidays be as fun as they sound?” On one level I completely agree, but another friend posted that lazy days watching movies aren’t [...]