Often, I find myself commenting on the bizarre nature of time. Much of the past year and a half has perplexed me because time seems to fly by as it lasts forever, a truly insane paradox. While I know that my daily emphasis on living in the moment is a primary reason for this strange [...]
It is late, and I need to sleep, but I needed to report that my med holiday seems to have helped some. I took my amphetamine today for the first time since the morning of December 30. While I did not feel a significant improvement in its effectiveness, I do think that I was more [...]
One of the hardest aspects of a medication holiday is the fact that even when I feel coherent, I find it impossible to focus in any meaningful way. Although I was out for three different one to two hour blocks today, I also had more energy when I was awake. Yet, even with those moments [...]
My head feels like it is in a vice. The headache started around 3 PM today, and it is progressively building. Somehow, I managed to go get my daughter around 4 PM. Then, my wife, my daughter, three of my daughter’s friends, and I went to a play at my school. Thankfully, my wife drove. [...]
Today was hard. I had an okay day, but I truly felt paralyzed when it came to doing any work. There is so much on my plate, and I have no idea where to begin. Confusing the situation is the sensation that I have not done much just for me recently. Many of my actions [...]
I have not slept well (or much) the last two nights. While that is NOT a good thing, my mood today is surprisingly upbeat. I know a piece of that is that I had a good meeting with my psychiatrist today. He is quite down-to-earth, but has also challenged me in the past to be [...]
Summer is always a curve and a blessing for me. I LOVE that I actually have “free time” because I need it to recover from the frenetic pace of my school year. At the same time, I hate it because I am terrible with unstructured time. I have been doing better this summer, but I [...]
Knowing that I have narcolepsy, I work diligently to have realistic expectations for myself. Certainly, I continue to overestimate (grossly) what I can accomplish – in a day, in a week, in a month. That said, though, I have gotten significantly better both in my estimation and in my acceptance of what I can accomplish. [...]
Yet again, time has had its way with me. My calendar seems to jump entire weeks at a time. Thus, May has arrived and my brain is still in the middle of April. The frenetic pace of school has not lessened, rather it has picked up. Today, I managed to finish putting comments on numerous [...]
It always throws me when my body “catches up” with my life. I had a great weekend, seeing friends and playing a small amount of ultimate. I also enjoyed my visit to my friends’ home in Maryland. The added exercise in White Flint would have been nice to forgo, but I know that it too [...]